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我又花钱了
可是花自己赚的钱
很有满足感
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警察封路
被逼搭lrt回家
在lrt里看到那些勇士们
听他们的对话
当时真的真的有股冲动
不要回家了
直接和他们到 pasar seni 算了
最后还是没有这么做
很遗憾
很后悔
我觉得我是应该去的

Last week of CP4

this week i am going to peadiatric wards
dealing with all the kids and infants was fun
they look cute even when they are crying
the physio let me do suction on the second day
well it was not so successful
i did for 4 babies and 2 of them were having some bleeding in the end
hmm next time must try harder
and i seriously need to open my mouth and talk MORE

after seeing those babies
i know i m lucky
at least i am a healthy person
most of them need to undergo surgery due to heart failure
they are so young and yet they are fighting hard to live
but some silly peoples out there
just simply want to commit suicide because of some small matters

back to single life again should i say?
haha
things are so so complicated
but definitely is more time for myself nowadays
and more time to spend with my friends

2 more days to go~
i think i will miss the place and the peoples here.

Blue Sand

blue sand, also known as blue tears
it's a beach in Maldives

the blue tears is microorganisams from underwater. when these microorganisms are being washed away by the waves, they can only live for not more than 100 seconds after leaving the seawater.

when the blue tear gradually loses its energy, the radiance will dissappear and thereby its life also ends there.

short time but romantic. 

Depressing

Gotta stay in Mahsa hostel alone for another 2 weeks
i will be having depression everyday
down down down
wish my clinical placement ends faster
practical exam ends faster
then i can start my part time job again
he doesn't allow me to work
but i really need to earn some extra money
for paying back the ptptn loan, getting myself some stuff i like and travelling around
everything needs money

any good news recently?
well yeah...
finally i cleared my debt with JPA
8000++
not a small amount
i managed to pay back with a little help from my dad


3 weeks already~
haiz..really don't know can maintain how long
anyway i am trying to be positive
=)

Somehow
i felt jealous of her
i felt insecure
i m afraid he still not yet let go of her
maybe i m just not good enough for him
i try not to compare myself with her
this relationship is so uncertain
i felt that i may just lose him anytime
hmm just let it be~

I am waiting for your message
but
in the end
when the phone rang
he is the one who message me
and my heart sank
i feel bad for the others sometimes
when i realised that i am just using them
to release my anger
to kill the feelling of loneliness
treating the others hot and cold
its something like revenge back
to your ignorance
but i can't help

男女之间会有纯友谊吗?

i am not desperate. i just share those songs and quotes i like out. if i am desperate, i will simply pick one and be my boyfriend.just like what you did last time.

sometimes, i doubted.
our love can last for how long?

Arghh

想到海边
呐喊~
最近很压力
做工+mock exam+assignment
还有posting都还没找到地方住

很想很想存一笔钱
然后到处去走走玩玩

其实我很多地方想去
很多事情想尝试的

愿望都会实现吗？

我
会幸福吗？

真的真的要读书了
我不能再drop了
这才是最重要的
其他事都放一边先吧

一定要加油!!!

i m still loving you-shiga lim

when i close my eyes i think of you
and the time we've had been through
even though were far apart right now
i remember back when you were here with me
how you've made my world complete
but now i'm left alone
we talked about love and hope
wishing we could start a life our own
i wish i could live without you

why did you tear my heart apart
you said you'll love me from the start
all those painful things you've put me through
but i'm still loving you
i've try to give my best to you
i don't deserve the things you do
everything has gone to memories
i just wish i knew the truth
behind the lies

this song make me think of you again.
even its been 4 years, i still wish to know the truth...
behind the lies.
w.l

Last post of the year

it has been a while since my last post. well, here are some updates...

i passed my viva...with flying colours!!! the most happiest part is all five of us get to pass (jazz,sze chee, winny & patrick). now just left the theory exam and assignment. hope i did well in both.

finally get to do rebonding to my hair. and this is how my hair looks like now.

not much different with last time but i can spend less time doing my hair before going out now. *hair straightener can be throw way

this year, i spent my Christmas eve with a few close friends. we have a bbq at a friend's house. after the bbq, we went PD beach. the celebration is kinda quiet compare to last year countdown in Sunway Pyramid. Hmm Seremban dont' have the Christmas and new year atmosphere at all.

Going to start my 3rd posting in early January. next year will be a busy year i bet.
study + part time.
i must earn some money to get the stuff i like.
2012, here i come to you.

*guess this will be my last post for the year 2011 XD

PASS

tomorrow is my A&R viva...
what i need is just a PASS
i don't ask for more
because i know i didn't really prepare well for it
i just flipped through the pages
a PASS is more than enough
i really don't want to fail and resit for the test!!!
at least i tried to go through everything
please give me a PASS
May God Bless Me

Friend???

what kind of friend is that? ask me to skip class and join them shopping at pavilion.

i really disappointed with you. u like never think of my side. u don't have class u want go hang out just go ahead but please don't try to influence me to skip my class.

i am really speechless to you. you only influence me with the bad things.i think i really should stay away from you.

Change

i can't be like this anymore
i need to be more talkative
i need to change from a passive person to a more active person
gotta boost up my confidence level
read more,experience more, learn more and practice more english
so that i have topics to chat with other peoples
i seriously need a change
to be a more attractive person
a pretty face is just not enough
i need to be more sociable and talkative~
MUST

first of all i have to upgrade my english level ...
i want to marry with a banana. lol.
i want to upgrade myself so that i can find a better partner.

对不起,谢谢

对不起
给了你希望又把它毁掉了
明明说好顺其自然的
最后反悔的是我

谢谢你
在我需要人陪伴的时候
一直都陪着我
那一个多月才熬得过去

对你冷淡
总好过我这里和他复合
那里又和你搞暧昧吧?

最后还是和他复合了
也不懂这么做对不对
最后会不会受伤?
但是不想想这么多了

爱...就对了

It's time to let go

He already deleted everything about me and didn't find me for almost 2 weeks. Well, was a little bit sad when seeing this...hmmm...
I think it's time for me to let go and move on with my new life now.
I am sure i can do it. I have to put him down. He can forget me just like that so am i. Sometimes i am just wonder why he can let go everything so easily. 7 months is not a short term.
However, i need courage and strength from you, My Lord.
Please give me the strength to move on with my life and take everything easy.
Please help me, My Lord.
Honestly, i feel better this time, as compare to the last relationship.
Maybe i am just not that into him.