Insecurity

i hate dealing with this kind of feeling
when i cannot bear it anymore
it will be the time to say bye bye ...

random

sometimes really fed up when people answer with "anything will do...no idea...don't know o~"
come on...you are old enough to make your own decision
don't always just follow the crowd
yes means yes no means no
is it that hard?
people can't help you to decide all the time
if everyone also giving these kind of answers, there will be no conclusion in the end
if you don't like it or not okay with the decision
just speak it out
but not using another person as excuse

 
 

Thoughts

"don't treat the symptom
don't treat the condition
treat the patient"
how many healthcare practitioner can actually do this?

get to know the dark side of the students from my uni
heard a lot of interesting story from a friend yesterday
after listen to her feel that i am a really good girl and good student all this while
although sometimes i am very lazy to study, and i like to play, even skip classes to do part time, start my assignment last minute, flirt sometimes......

love is as fragile as human life 
today you see the couple is like really sweet
tomorrow you are surprise with the news that they just break up
and the next day you may see the guy/girl is coupled with another one again

easy come, easy go



 

Random night

Every time  when I feel like wanna blog something, my lappy is always not with me... Hmm don't think blog with handphone is a brilliant idea. it's so much difficult compare to laptop. ***fingers too big 

...alright guess I should blog again next time when the mood comes again.sleeping time!!! Tomorrow gotta wake up really early again. That's the only choice because wanna stay home for longer time. 

Today dad ask me again whether I have enough money to spend, felt so blessed.

钱其实没有很重要

身边有个朋友
常说要赚很多的钱
努力打拼两三年
然后买车买家来孝顺父母

只是
他们有这么多的时间吗？
也许三年不长
可是明天会发生什么事有谁知？
我会觉得现在比未来更重要


其实
父母要的不是你每个月给他们很多很多的家用
他们要的比我们想得简单
他们只想孩子多点回家
多点抽时间陪他们
我的父母是这样
应该都一样的吧

有时
真的不应该把钱看得那么重
钱是很重要
可是
我觉得活着更重要
（最近身边很多人车祸就酱去世了）

等你赚到了很多的钱
可是父母却不在了
才来后悔
来得及吗？ 

我想通了
希望不会太迟

Jonas Brothers live in Malaysia

uhm... well i m actually not a huge fan of them
but they are really rock on that night

 

the opening
many were late because its a rainy day

 

 

these are the only pic i have as i am on duty that time
overall it is a nice experience working as crew for concert
 
by the way
i never thought that one of them is actually younger than me
zzzzz ~:/ 

Updatessss

giving my blog a new skin today~

ohhhh myyyyyy...
it's October already
gonna be a really busy month 
will be keep busy till end of the year
assignment submission~
community service~
Jonas Brother concert~ still excited even though i m just go there for working purpose
daddy birthday~ * m thinking to give him a surprise XD*
uncle and aunty are coming back from New York~
preparation for clinical placement~ *battlefield*

i can foresee a great weekend is coming
k-ing session and community service
ouchh..not to forget to start my assignment as well while enjoying

 



 
 

CPR

due to the sudden changes in the class schedule
i missed the chance to act as extra in a commercial today
hmph...but never mind lo
sooner o later will have the chance again~

today class is about the basic life support
actually i am quite interested with this topic
when i was still in primary school i think of becoming a life guard 
hahaha...
that time was so addicted to a english drama series called Baywatch  

learned a new way of counting CPR instead of 1, 2,3...

" Row, row, row your boat, Gently down the stream.
     Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily,Life is but a dream. "
by the time you finish the song, you already completed 30 times of compression.

N

三个月后第一次在校园相遇

当你走过来和我说话时

心跳顿时加速

像跳快了 一拍

都快忘了这种感觉

想起以前

我们曾经也很甜蜜过

 

Quit or ?

I wanna buy a lot a lot of stuffs

give my parents a lot a lot of money

to cover back the money i took from my account before my dad notice about it 

and not to forget save money for bangkok trip next year

i want spend as much as i like over there 

thus

i gotta earn a lot a lot of money

fortunately recently the freelance jobs are coming non stop

ohhhhh really can't wait for the salary out

college over deducted my ptptn loan

really hope they can refund back as soon as possible

then i can use that amount of money to buy a new iphone perhaps

the samsung galaxy i bought previously get stolen by my housemates

that gay couple are really bastard 

i really don't think i can concentrate on so many things at the same time

freelance jobs, study, family, Qnet, friends

didn't even touch my books at all since entering year 3

if something is really good, for our future, but you don't like doing it at all, will you still continue doing it? don't know for how many times i think of quit doing it since the day i started it.

i know it is good, but i really don't like doing it.

if you ask me, i rather choose to work freelance. i don't know why after hanging out with them for so long, my mindset still like that. no idea i can hold on for how long in this business.

 

好期待我有一天也能披上这件毕业礼服
如果有那一天
我一定要邀请爸妈出席
然后和他们合照

两年
咬咬牙就能熬过去的

need more courage and support
i don't want to give up halfway
but...
i am all alone after all
:'(

if you suceed in cheating someone,
don't think that the person is a fool.

Realize that the person trusted you much more than you deserved

野心

人的野心
可以大到把一切吞没

 我很介意
 所以什么都不想懂
 知道了我会想哭

 他们都不坏
 而是我在乎
 要怎样才可以什么都不在乎?