已經四個月了，為什麼我還在掙扎？

偶爾聽到傷心情歌，翻到以前的合照，還是心很痛。

我已經盡量把每天的時間都填滿了，只是還是會想起！！！！！

想起的都是你的好。。。

驕傲 是脆弱的外表
最怕我的心 你不要

能不能繼續 對我哭 對我笑 對我好
繼續讓我 為你想 為你瘋 陪你老
你好不好 好想知道
別急著把回憶都丟掉

我只需要你在身邊 陪我吵 陪我鬧
用好的我 把過去壞的我 都換掉
好想聽到 你堅決說愛我
可惜回不去那一秒
你，好不好？

我一點都不好。曾經我以為，我們是可以一起走到最後的。你就不能像以前那樣，寵著我，遷就著我嗎？

#27/04/13-05/02/17

婆婆

今天心情沉沉的，早上梦见了婆婆，想起小时候不懂事对她的不好。

我不知道婆婆是位怎样的人，妈妈口中的婆婆就是厉害+刻薄。小时候的我是婆婆一手带大的，记忆中的她对我的任性调皮是极有耐心与疼爱，我却不懂得珍惜。

如今的我懂事了，婆婆却已经不在世了。。。

想见也只能在梦里，对我付出的爱该如何报答

今天的心情空空滴, 也许是因为一整天都在家里无事可做.

今天又再次申请suntherland的customer service. 感觉很茅盾因为它有midnight shift.

两个星期没回家了, 是时候回去看看爸妈了.

无业游民

I have been jobless for a month. Even though I have some freelance part-time job in the meantime while looking for full time job but still, I was wondering whether I made the wrong decision by tendered resignation letter before I get a new job? Sometimes I just wish I can be working freelance for the whole life but this is impossible. Perhaps I should start taking some short courses like business administration or computer course. Should I? 

Elaine don't be so choosy ok? You can't have everything as you wish. When you demand for higher salary, of course you have to sacrifice something.

Grandpa grandma, I really miss you so much, come into my dream please. Sorry for not going to visit you two again this year. My bad. You will always be remembered in my heart.

Love.

25

By turning 25 this year i realised that family is everything. I just wish that I can spend more time with my parents and siblings. Money can always be earned.

God is an amazing God
With Him in the heart,everything will be okay. Surely will.

People who lied won't bother to explain. Ohhh really?

I doubt it~

When I kept quiet doesn't mean I don't know anything ok~ 

最近

我很不快乐
我觉得要相信一个人很难
知道越多越难过
我很需要一双耳朵
太多东西憋在心里了 不知要和谁说
朋友读书的读书做工的做工
都不懂要找谁谈心事好
谁可以教教我接下来的路要怎么走？

#facebook #stalker #relationship #heartbreak

好想家
家里有爸爸妈妈弟弟妹妹
我不想呆在这里了
我不想和这里的人一起
还是家人对我最好
还是家里的床最温暖

#misshome

final year final sem!!!

fighting!!!
wait for so long, finally i m in the last semester now...
one more month to final exam
study hard*work hard*play hard*pray hard*
i can do it!

谢谢你的开导，有你真好   #LYS

Final posting

Just started with my final posting

no too good, not too bad

can consider the head of department treated me very good already, just that i feel like me myself is making people vomit blood

he still can laugh out loud when seeing me made all those silly mistakes

i hope everything will go smoothly during these six weeks

seriously don't think i will work as a physiotherapist after graduate~

then what for i study so hard in these 4 years~

hmmm...

hmmm...

hmmm...

what a tiring job~i wonder will it be different story when it comes to working life?

#second day of posting

安全感

能不能不爱了 
因为爱太痛了 
我只想做回我自己  
如果接受不到 
那为什么又不肯放手呢？ 
我要的其实很简单

#winnie 

trust

day by day, the feeling of unhappy is growing in this relationship.
after together for almost 6 months, and now everything has changed.
i started to confuse why am i still holding on to this relationship.
he no more the person i know.
the reason that make me fall for love is gone.
everything CHANGED

if no trust, better don't start a relationship.
if someone break the trust, better discontinue it as you will find it is so so hard to trust the person back.
if one of the parties doesn't want to talk about the issues, doesn't want to discuss a way to fix the problem together, will you still think it's worth for you to waste your time on this person anymore?

Can't find my goal yet

I am a person who don't like to do sharing. yesterday was another breakthrough because I did sharing in front of 30 plus people again. so so long never do sharing. actually I am in dilemma again now. I don't know whether I should start it at this moment as I am in my final semester now. I really can't fail at this level. kinda sad today because first day of class after posting for six weeks and I was late. but I still went into the class and fortunately lecturer didn't scold anything. also I am not really sure is this suitable for me? what about my air stewardess dream ? what about my dream working overseas with my gang of friends after graduate? how I wish I have many many lifes...